He took my heart away.

2011-07-08T02:56:00.000-07:00

5.9.11 - YouKnowItsHard
I feel so sad. :( It's been 5days, and still, you don't want talk to me. :( I miss you. :( I'm always crying before I sleep. :( Because I really miss you, I miss talking to you. :( I always wish that you'll realize that our situation hurts me much. :( I don't want to let you go. . So I'm trying to be strong. It's hard to pretend, it's hard to laugh and smile. :( .. Another day passed, You went here in our house. I really want to look at you.. But I think you wouldn't like it. :( When you left, my tears fell down. :(

5.17.11 - ImTheonlyOneWhossuffering

I don't know kung saan ako nagkamali..
Alam kong ginagawa ko lahat para maging maayos yung relasyon namin.
But everything I do is not enough.
Until I realize, I'm the only one who's fixing this.
Na, ako na lang pala yung may gusto na magwork tong relationship namin.
I'm always crying so hard, Ang sakit sakit na..
Pero lahat tinitiis ko. I hope this is just a bad dream.
He should know evrything sucks.
Hindi ko alam kung manhid lang siya or sinasadya niyang gawin ang lahat ng ito.
I hate myself for being so stupid.

7.4.11 - IDontWannaBeYourFriend

He's GONE.
Totally gone.
I don't want to be his friend, but he wants to. Oh I don't think he does.
I've been busy this past few weeks but this doesn't heal the pain. I'm trying to stop my thoughts. There's a hole in my chest, it's getting bigger everytime, it aches, and it came to the point where in i almost cry myself to sleep. This isn't fun. Why are you doing this to me? I'd talk to you a while ago. I can still feel YOU. Why is it like this? Why can't this heart stop loving you? :(

7.4.11- IKnowImHappy

I'm in a relationship with:
BOOKS
GOD
SONGS
MY BAND
MY VOICE
MY STUDIES
MY BABY
MYSELF.

THIS IS COOOL. :D

7.6.11 - I NEED A LITTLE MORE LUCK THAN A LITTLE BIT!

Haha! Oh my GOSH! I can't believe this. I've called BAMBI. :)) He's voice was so O-MY-SO-HANDSOME. HAHA! why is it like this.? XD

I want to see him tomorrow! :)) I hope he'll like me.. :/ I.WISH.I.WISH!

But let's go back to the person who made the hole in my chest, I talked to him a while ago. I don't think he likes it, the way I talk to him I mean. There are things that this heart of mine can't bear. I think he still has feelings for me. But HE'S STOPPING IT. Yea, totally STOPING! why? Don't you like me? I can't take it, i'm pleasing him, it shouldn't be like this! It's like i'm begging for some love from him! I hate myself. I want to move on but I can't. If i'm ignoring him, there's always a situation wherein I have to be with him still! Because his part of the ACS also. It's hard to stay away from him. WE CAN'T AVOID EACH OTHER. :|

-THEHELLICARE- :)

He took my heart away.